Titles are highly over-rated...
What it is, world? I have not written in quite some time... I guess the novelty wore off. Let's start with some cool words: Shit, damn, fart, poopy, fuck-dick. Okay that was fun. Things are getting crazy around the house. I see stupid things that I think are gay, and feel the need to voice my opinion... Who am I to "judge" a sixteen year old? Excuse me if I don't want to see my parents treated the same way I treated them? What a hypocrite, right? Well I've learned a lot in my day, and I guess I just expect the people closest to me to get it before I did. I guess I just don't realize that it took me forever to see how selfish I was being. I have not blamed anyone for the pain I have suffered. I do not dwell on it. I am responsible for my own actions, and I am responsible for taking everything I've been through, and making something out of it. I have become the strong person I am because of the things that I have put myself through, and the things I have been through that were not up to me. Parents are here to do the best job they can, in knowing what they know, and seeing what they have seen. My parents have opened their hearts, and their home to many children, and many situations, and I will not stand by and listen to an angry little girl tell my mother that she wishes she was not adopted by her. If you are reading this... Do not take my words personally, and I love you no matter what. Let's just look at the situation: Excuse me for saying it, but you are sixteen. You are mad about not getting your way, and you are mad when someone says you are not "being responsible." I know-- in being there myself that is annoying and you will not be able to talk calmly because you feel like you are being attacked. But if you could please just look at ---- I'm going to stop here. I will make no change in any young mind at this point. I will say this, though: A lot of people were very happy to make the sacrifices they have made for you. BE THANKFUL. Being a teenager sucks, but think about the angry words that your foul tongue are forming. Deal with being a teenager, and deal with the drama that it entails, not only caused by your parents.
Why am I wasting my time? Why do I think that my words might make a difference? You know what: I don't think that. I do know, though, that it hurt me- TERRIBLY- to hear the words I heard. And it kills me to think that a life filled with all that it would be filled with, seems "better" to you. Perhaps it doesn't. I hope it doesn't. I know that anger leads to such words... It's dinner time.....
Why am I wasting my time? Why do I think that my words might make a difference? You know what: I don't think that. I do know, though, that it hurt me- TERRIBLY- to hear the words I heard. And it kills me to think that a life filled with all that it would be filled with, seems "better" to you. Perhaps it doesn't. I hope it doesn't. I know that anger leads to such words... It's dinner time.....
1 Comments:
I think I've read the sister you're talking about... but I can't find your blog, christiane's or the 16 yr old's on your mom's blog anymore... did she boot you guys off her blog roll... what the hell?
I can get to christiane, since she left a comment, how do I get to the 16-yr-old's blog? She adopted? I didn't know that. In the last blog post I read of hers she seemed to feel so ENTITLED... to the front seat, her own room... petty tenaged shit like that. I assumed she was the biological kid and you guys were the adopted ones... based on her feeling of entitlement.
You didn't update on your job search, but I hope it's going well.
Do your best to chill your sister out... your mom has enough going on, between having all you guys home again, and a sick (an uncooperative) mother to deal with... that a lot of change to deal with in a short period of time... talk some sense into Miss 16, if you can!
P.S. How many comments do I have to leave to get you guys to comment on my blog??? Just curious!
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